=true self ?=

2010.03.25 ^.^

"so , when are you going to be urself? "

what a good question that i failed to answer during my counseling session.
be myself? true self?
i thought i m always the one who i m ?

"a true self wont live for pleasing other person."
"a true self wont voice out even he/she is tired, because he/she is willing to do so."
"a true self wont lack of energy because he/she does really enjoy his/her life."
"a true self..."

well, this is what i found out through my counseling session this morning.
it is a good point tat i truly need to think about it.

i felt so bad when this question was asked by my counselor.
a question that confuse me so badly.

"actually i m still myself right now, but i feel that it is just some of the part of me, not the entire of 'me'."
quite terrible huh this answer?

perhaps there are many reasons that might explain this
but i m so confused now!

it's true!
since when sping love to complain a lot?？
it's really not me!
i used to enjoy my life so much,
even though i m extremely tired.
i rarely complain about my life!
it's really not mee!!!

perhaps i m entering another stages of life,
that's y i m changing as well?

i know that whatever i m doing now,
perhaps not what i like or love.
but i v clear that whatever i m doing right now, there's a reason behind.

i m waiting for the chances for me to become the 100% of me.
the day of true self is waiting for me?
i know it is.